A Cold Day in Hell

I decorated her grave for Christmas with baby blue and silver ornaments and ribbon shortly after her birthday.

She would have been 15.

Her grave is adjacent from the cross that can be seen by the road (Pendleton Ave.)

death poem

Friday May 2, 2008

Life

There was life

Soft and pink and small

Sweet

Sweet little baby

Big wide blue eyes

The same eyes that are now closed forever

Forever 14

Why

Why did evil take her

WHY

There was life

So sweet and innocent

Soft and new

In my arms

I gave her life

It was given to me

Then it was taken

The time

The time

Between the first day of her life

And the very last

Seems so so short

The time

Wasn’t enough

It wasn’t enough!!!!

She was only 14!!!!

She had her whole life in front of her

Or so I thought

So we take for granted

That she, that he, that any of us

Will have our whole life in front of us.

Not her.

Her life was cut short

Cut way too short.

And I look around

At all the others

Who are ALIVE

Alive

And well

Alive

And breathing.

But not her.

She doesn’t breathe anymore

She doesn’t breathe anymore…

Doesn’t’

Breathe

Anymore.

And that’s it

The image of her

On that thing

That cold thing

And she was cold

She was so cold

There was no life

In her

No life

Left in her

My once alive and beautiful child

Was now

A

Cold

Lifeless

Corpse.

My God

How will I survive

I love you with all the depths of my being

And cannot accept this

I don’t know how I will survive.

©Laura L. Brinker, Mommy

Anderson man guilty in girl's killing

By THE ASSOCIATED PRESS • May 21, 2008

ANDERSON - A man who called 911 to report a body in an Anderson park has been convicted of murdering the 14-year-old girl.

It took a Madison County jury less than 30 minutes to find Jesse Lee Pitts guilty Tuesday in the death of Amanda Brinker. She was found beaten to death with a jack handle at Edgewater Park in September.

Investigators became suspicious of the call because the girl's body had been dragged off a walking trail and was not in plain sight. Police said blood was spattered on clothing in Pitts' possession.

The Associated Press left a message with Pitts' attorney, Jason Childers, seeking comment.

Pitts faces 45 years to 60 years in prison when he is sentenced June 9.

Trial update May 15 2008

Desmond Rogers was the first witness called to the stand Thursday, the second day of testimony in Pitts’ murder trial. Pitts stands accused of killing 14-year-old Brinker in September 2007 and faces 45 to 65 years if convicted.

Published May 15, 2008 08:56 pm - ANDERSON — On the night before her death, Amanda Brinker planned a morning meeting with Jesse Lee Pitts at Edgewater Park, according to a mutual friend.
8:54 p.m.: Witness: Brinker, Pitts planned to meet

ANDERSON — On the night before her death, Amanda Brinker planned a morning meeting with Jesse Lee Pitts at Edgewater Park, according to a mutual friend.

Rogers attended Anderson High School with Brinker, and the two were neighbors. He came to know Pitts as an employee at the nearby Speedway gas station and introduced the two.

“He called Amanda about meeting in the park the next morning,” Rogers said. “She called me about 6:30 (a.m.).”

Rogers didn’t answer; he went to school instead. Two hours later, around 8:30 a.m., Amanda was found dead in Edgewater Park.

Anderson police Officer Randy Doss also testified Thursday. Using a large map provided by the prosecution, Doss recounted the events leading to the discovery of Brinker’s body. He said the body was not visible from the paved asphalt path running through the park, a fact that drew the suspicion of police toward Pitts, who made the initial 911 call.

“I had to walk out entirely to the edge of the river, and it was approximately a 2- or 2 1/2-foot dropoff to where you could see it,” Doss said. “I looked out, and I could see the body of the victim. She was lying face down in pretty shallow water, probably six to eight inches deep.”

Defense attorney Jason Childers made multiple references Thursday to a bicycle found in the park, but not included in the crime scene. When Madison County Chief Deputy Coroner Marian Dunnichay took the stand, she called the crime scene “appropriate.”

As part of the coroner’s office investigation, Dunnichay had the right to alter the crime scene as designated with yellow tape, but agreed with the scene established by the Anderson Police Department. In approximately 16 years with the coroner’s office, Dunnichay said, she has worked “hundreds” of crime scenes, and in her opinion, Brinker’s body had clearly been moved before police arrived.

“The body was moved; I can’t say if it was (dragged),” she said, noting that Brinker’s belt had been loosened on the back side between belt loops. “There was a crime scene where there was blood spatter and the body was moved to another area.”

Childers also questioned Dunnichay as to the possibility of someone crossing police lines and entering the crime scene, to which she responded that officers were posted at two entrances to the park to prevent unauthorized access. APD officer Doss previously testified that he kept a log of everyone who entered the crime scene during his shift.

Forensic pathologist Dr. Paul F. Mellen tied injuries that led to Amanda Brinker’s death to what police believe is the murder weapon. Mellen displayed photographs from the autopsy of Brinker that drew gasps and sobs from members of the audience and caused some to leave the courtroom. A close-up photograph of Brinker’s face revealed an injury to the left side, while photographs taken of the shaved back of her head revealed multiple lacerations.

Mellen said the injuries were consistent with a “relatively straight, heavy object like a rod,” such as the jack handle police believe to be the murder weapon. He said Brinker sustained a skull fracture to the back of her head, bleeding of the brain and swelling of the brain.

Childers asked whether such injuries were deadly in the absence of water, as Brinker’s body was found face down in the White River.

“I’m not sure that these injuries alone, had she not been in the water, would have been sufficient to kill her,” he said. “The brain swells over time. There may have been reversible treatment. Nothing here struck me as an injury that was unsurvivable.”

Another article found at nbc5i.com

nbc5i.com

Jesse Pitts
911 CALLER ARRESTED

Video: Loved Ones Seek Answers
* Slideshow: 911 Caller Held

911 Caller Arrested In 14-Year-Old's Death
911 Caller Says Girl Fell, Hit Her Head

POSTED: 6:27 am CDT September 21, 2007
UPDATED: 7:49 am CDT September 21, 2007
ANDERSON, Ind. -- A man whose 911 call led emergency personnel to find a teenage girl's body in an Anderson park Thursday morning has been arrested in connection with her death, police said.

Jesse L. Pitts, 20, was being held Thursday evening, hours after emergency personnel found 14-year-old Amanda Brinker dead on the bank of the White River at Edgewater Park. She was found fully clothed and face-down, reported WRTV-TV in Indianapolis.

Police said Brinker, an Anderson High School student, appeared to have died of blunt-force trauma. Pitts told investigators he had taken her to the park on Thursday morning and called 911 when she fell and hit her head on something, police said.

That call came at about 8 a.m., and emergency personnel found Brinker's body at about 8:15 a.m., the television station reported. Police said they believe Brinker's death was a homicide and investigators were looking for a weapon.

"(Pitts) was present at the time of death and took actions that we believe contributed to (Brinker's) death," said Anderson Police Department Detective Joel Sandefur.

Sandefur said police found blood spattered on clothing in Pitts' possession.

Witnesses told police that Brinker got into Pitts' car at a bus stop Thursday morning. Pitts told investigators he drove her to the park and that they smoked marijuana, police said.

An autopsy is scheduled for Friday. Police said Pitts would have an initial court hearing Friday afternoon.

Police said Pitts and Brinker knew each other for some time, but the extent of their relationship wasn't clear. Investigators said Brinker had not been sexually assaulted.

"Everybody's in shock at this time," said Brian Golish, a friend of Brinker's family. "Everybody's grieving, but it's just going to get worse before it gets better."

Golish said Brinker was like a daughter to him.

"She really loved animals, and she was really a sweetheart to us," Golish said. "It's going to be a big loss. I just don't understand why someone would do that."

Another article found on mydeathspace.com

Amanda Brinker (14) died after being struck in the back of the head multiple times with a car jack

Filed Under: Beating

Published: Nov 02, 2007 @ 6:00 AM

Amanda Brinker (14)

Date: Sep 20, 2007

Cause of Death: Bludgeoned with Car Jack

Location: Anderson, IN

The following is a transcript of a 911 call, obtained by Theheraldbulletin.com, placed Thursday morning to Anderson Police by 20-year-old Jesse Lee Pitts:

Police dispatcher - "Anderson 911. What is your emergency?"

Pitts - "Yeah. Me and my girlfriend were walking in 10th Street Park this morning, like, just a little bit ago, had just enough time to get home, um, on the right-hand side, there was a girl laying in the river, face down."

Dispatcher - "Can you tell me where this is again?"

Pitts - "10th Street Park... I went down and checked on her. I looked at her. It's a girl I know. Her name is Amanda. I don't know her last name. I went down and looked at her, and she was already face down. She wasn't breathing; there wasn't no pulse or anything. So I told my girl, 'Just bring me back and I'll call the police.'"

Dispatcher - "Is she female, white?"

Pitts - "Yes. She's female, white."

Dispatcher - "And you said her first name is Amanda?"

Pitts - "Amanda, yes. I knew her through a couple of my other friends."

Dispatcher - "And what's your name?"

Pitts - "Jesse Pitts..."

Dispatcher - "OK. And you're not there anymore, right?"

Pitts - "No, I went home."

Dispatcher - "OK. We'll get somebody out there."

Pitts - "Thank you."

Dispatcher - "Good-bye."

Pitts - "Good-bye."

During the call, Pitts mentions that the victim is face down in the water. However, he is somehow able to identify her as "Amanda," a girl he just happens to know. It goes without saying that the location where he purportedly found the body is off the beaten path and not in an area where it would have typically been seen right away. Investigators had such a difficult time locating it that the dispatcher had to call Pitts back to get more detailed directions.

Pitts - "Hello?"

Dispatcher - "Hi, Jesse. When you go into the park, where is it? When you drive into the parking lot where is she?"

Pitts - "OK. Let me gather my mind here real quick. OK. When you pull into the park, you know how it's got that little split ways where you either go left or right? Go left and it's on the right-hand side. There'll be a big tree with, like, a little bit of, like, a shrub in front of it. It's probably, like, 6 foot tall."

Dispatcher - "OK. Hold on a second. You go into the park and where the drive splits you go to the left?"

Pitts - "When you drive, you go all the way down and park, and go on the trails...You're going to go to the left on the trails, and it's on the right."

Dispatcher - "How far on the trails?"

Pitts - "Um, not very, um. I don't want to say anymore than I can. There's just (unintelligible) her beat up, I believe."

Dispatcher - "This is after you leave the parking lot?"

Pitts - "OK, when you pull in...You know where the trails are? If you walk down the trail, probably about a 100 feet or so, to the right-hand side you'll see a clearing. It looks like the weeds have been pushed down...She's right down there...I went down to check on her and she's just face down and her skin was white."

Dispatcher - "OK, just a minute."

Using the information provided by Pitts, police were finally able to locate the victim's body along the banks of White River. It was immediately apparent that the victim had suffered severe blunt force trauma to the back of the head. When investigators conducted a search of the area, they found blood splatter on a nearby walkway. Not far from there, police discovered a purse and an identification card. The individual named on the card was 14-year-old Amanda Brinker.

Due to the circumstances surrounding the discovery, investigators began to suspect Pitts might know more than he was letting on. Anderson Police Department Detective Joel Sandefur went to Judge John Shanks and asked him to authorize a search warrant for Pitts' apartment. Sandefur told Shanks that investigators were suspicious of Pitts because the body was not in a location where it could easily be found.

"The body was not in clear view," Sandefur told Shanks at a probable cause hearing Thursday. "It was hidden."

Upon hearing the details of the investigation, Shanks granted the Anderson Police Department permission to search Pitts' apartment, located on the 1600 block of Southwood Road. During a search of the property, investigators found two very incriminating pieces of evidence. Inside a trash bag, they found a shirt stained with blood, and in a 1993 Chevrolet Cavalier, they found a jack handle with human blood and what appeared to be particles of hair and flesh. According to the car's owner, Jennifer Lawler, Pitts had borrowed the car earlier that morning so he could pick up Amanda at her school bus stop.

Investigators had substantial evidence linking Pitts to the crime, so the decision was made to book him on suspicion of murder.

"The severity of this is horrorendous," Detective Terry Sollars told Newslinkindiana.com Friday. "It places a major burden on all of the police involved in this to want to be able to solve this quickly. We don't want someone out there walking around the streets, who has killed a 14-year-old girl in such a horrible fashion."

During questioning, Pitts admitted to picking Amanda up, and allegedly told investigators that they drove to Edgewater Park and smoked marijuana cigarettes while walking the nature trails. After getting high, Pitts said he pulled out the jack handle, an item he told detectives he was carrying for "protection," and struck Amanda in the back of the head. He then threw her body down an embankment next to the river. Afterwards, Pitts drove back to his apartment and told some of the details to his girlfriend, 20-year-old Barbara Howard. Pitts and Howard then went to the park to check on Amanda. Shortly thereafter, Pitts called 911 and reported finding the body.

Pitts [had a] profile on the popular social networking website, MySpace. [Since deleted] In it, he said he was working on going to college so he could get an associate's degree in criminal law. He listed some of his favorite television shows as CSI, and Law and Order. He said he enjoyed those shows because he likes "to stay smarter than the law." In light of his current situation, it would appear as though he missed an episode or two.

On Sunday, a MySpace user by the name of Amanda Nicole Burns eloquently summed up many people's thoughts when she left the following unedited comment on Pitts' page:

"How the f-k u going to kill my friend? ur f-ked up in the head. I have known u for 6 yrs and u just did not seem like that, but I know now to watch myself and my kid around people for the rest of my life. ur a sick f-king bastard and u will go to hell for this u dumb f-k. She had so much ahead of her, why did u have to kill her? She was f-king 14 and wouldn't f-k u so u kill her. ur sick dude. They need to kill u the same f-king way u did her. Now ur kid will know u as a killer and not his father. I wish u would die. ur sick. She deserved to live as much as u did."

Pitts is being held without bond in the Madison County Jail. According to police, he has given several conflicting statements to investigators, including one version in which he "accidentally" struck Amanda with the jack handle, a claim police consider absurd.

"Due to the type of injuries that she sustained and the (manner) of her death, it doesn't appear that it was anything close to an accident," Sollars said in an interview with Theindychannel.com Friday.

Investigators have not commented on what, if any, motive Pitts had for killing Amanda, however yesterday I spoke with someone who claimed to know the reason behind the murder.

"I talked to a friend and they just talked to Jesse and he said he killed her cuz she wouldn't have sexual relations with him," my source said.

Perhaps in the coming weeks we will find out if they are correct.

Anyone with information on this case is asked to call the Anderson Police Department at (765) 648-6730.

A fund has been established to help Amanda's family pay for her funeral expenses. Donations can be sent to: Independent Federal Credit Union, 1107 E. 24th St., Anderson, IN 46016.

Related Article(s): Amanda's Private Profile, Jesse Lee Pitts Arrested for Murder of Fourteen-Year-Old Amanda Brinker

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Article found on TruTV crimelibrary.com

Jesse Lee Pitts Arrested for Murder of Fourteen-Year-Old Amanda Brinker

By David Lohr September 25, 2007 ANDERSON, IN. (Crime Library) — The case you are about to read is interesting in that it supports the old adage that you don't have to be intelligent to be a criminal. In fact, you apparently don't even need a good motive, just a twisted desire to take an innocent life. Hell, afterwards you can even call 911 to report the crime yourself. The mere fact that you're a moron will come later as an afterthought. Jesse Pitts The following is a transcript of a 911 call, obtained by Theheraldbulletin.com, placed Thursday morning to Anderson Police by 20-year-old Jesse Lee Pitts: Police dispatcher — "Anderson 911. What is your emergency?" Pitts — "Yeah. Me and my girlfriend were walking in 10th Street Park this morning, like, just a little bit ago, had just enough time to get home, um, on the right-hand side, there was a girl laying in the river, face down." Dispatcher — "Can you tell me where this is again?" Pitts — "10th Street Park... I went down and checked on her. I looked at her. It's a girl I know. Her name is Amanda. I don't know her last name. I went down and looked at her, and she was already face down. She wasn't breathing; there wasn't no pulse or anything. So I told my girl, 'Just bring me back and I'll call the police.'" Dispatcher — "Is she female, white?" Pitts — "Yes. She's female, white." Dispatcher — "And you said her first name is Amanda?" Pitts — "Amanda, yes. I knew her through a couple of my other friends." Dispatcher — "And what's your name?" Pitts — "Jesse Pitts..." Dispatcher — "OK. And you're not there anymore, right?" Pitts — "No, I went home." Dispatcher — "OK. We'll get somebody out there." Pitts — "Thank you." Dispatcher — "Good-bye." Pitts — "Good-bye." Contact David Lohr at crimewriter74@adelphia.net

Man Arrested After Teen Found Dead On River Bank Sept. 20, 2007

TheIndyChannel.com

Related To Story

• Video: Family, Friends Seek Answers After Teen Killed

Man Arrested After Teen Found Dead On River Bank

Police Say Spattered Blood Found On Suspect's Clothing

POSTED: 12:28 pm EDT September 20, 2007

UPDATED: 3:30 pm EDT September 21, 2007

ANDERSON, Ind. -- A man whose 911 call led emergency personnel to find a teenage girl's body in an Anderson park Thursday morning is expected to make a court appearance Friday following his arrest in connection with her death, police said.

Jesse L. Pitts, 20, was being held Friday morning, a day after emergency personnel found 14-year-old Amanda Brinker (pictured) fully clothed, face-down and dead on the bank of the White River at Edgewater Park.

Images: Police: 911 Caller Arrested In Teen's Death

Police said Brinker, an Anderson High School student, appeared to have died of blunt force trauma. Pitts told investigators he had taken her to the park on Thursday morning and called 911 when she fell and hit her head on something, police said.

That call came at about 8 a.m., and emergency personnel found Brinker's body at about 8:15 a.m., 6News reported. Police said they believe Brinker's death was a homicide and investigators were looking for a weapon.

"(Pitts) was present at the time of death and took actions that we believe contributed to (Brinker's) death," said Anderson Police Department Detective Joel Sandefur.

Sandefur said police found blood spattered on clothing in Pitts' possession.

Witnesses told police that Brinker had entered Pitts' car at a bus stop Thursday morning. Pitts told investigators he drove her to the park and that they smoked marijuana, police said.

Jesse Pitts

An autopsy is scheduled for Friday.

Police said Pitts and Brinker knew each other for some time, but the extent of their relationship wasn't clear. Investigators said Brinker had not been sexually assaulted.

"Everybody's in shock at this time," said Brian Golish, a friend of Brinker's family. "Everybody's grieving, but it's just going to get worse before it gets better."

Golish said Brinker was like a daughter to him.

"She really loved animals, and she was really a sweetheart to us," Golish said. "It's going to be a big loss. I just don't understand why someone would do that."

Fund Established For Funeral Expenses

A fund has been established to help Brinker's family pay for her funeral.

Donations can be made at or sent to the Independent Federal Credit Union, 1107 E. 24th St., Anderson, IN 46016. For more information, you can call the credit union at 765-649-9271.

Copyright 2007 by TheIndyChannel.com. The Associated Press contributed to this report. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

Jesus said, "Come to the water. Stand by my side"

"YOU SAID YOU'D COME AND SHARE ALL MY SORROWS,
YOU SAID YOU'D BE THERE FOR ALL MY TOMORROWS
JUST LIKE YOU PROMISED
YOU CAME HERE TO STAY
I JUST HAD TO PRAY."

And Jesus said, " Come to the water. Stand by my side.
I know you are thirsty. You won't be denied
I felt every tear drop when in darkness you cried
And I strove to remind you, that for those tears, I died."

"YOUR GOODNESS SO GREAT, I CAN'T UNDERSTAND
AND DEAR LORD I KNOW THAT ALL OF THIS WAS PLANNED.
I KNOW YOU'RE HERE NOW, AND ALWAYS WILL BE
YOUR LOVE LOOSED MY CHAINS AND IN YOU I'M FREE
BUT JESUS, WHY ME?"

And Jesus said, "Come to the water, Stand by my side
I know you are thirsty, you won't be denied.
I felt every tear drop when in darkness you cried
And I strove to remind you, that for those tears, I died."

3 months & 2 days

December 22, 2007

A life is a beautiful thing to waste

My sweet Amanda, how lost I am
without you here. How can it be
true
How can any of it be true???
Nothing I say nothing I do

How do I go on? I have lost so much.
I lost both of my sisters too.
I can't stand this
I am reduced to a puddle
of garbage on the floor
with one foot in Heaven
I want to to be there
but I can't
I can't leave your brother
and sister
like you left us.

Amanda Amanda Amanda
I love you so
I'll never let you go!!!!!!

Butterfly's and Heaven

A body
is like a
cocoon...
Inside the cocoon
is a beautiful butterfly
waiting to come out and fly to Heaven.

Untitled excerpt from unknown author

"Death is nothing at all. I have only slipped away into the next
room. I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
that we still are. Call me by my
old familiar names, speak to me in the
easy ways you always did.
Put no difference in your tone,
wear no forced air of solemnity or
sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we always
enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me,
pray for me. Let my name be
ever the household word that
it always was, let it e spoken
without effort, without the
trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same as it ever was.
There is unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of sight?
I am waiting for you,
for an interval, somewhere very near,
just around the corner.
All is well."

Nov. 11, 2007

dear diary,
I haven't written in a long time.
Amanda Christian
I miss you so much!
I love you so much!
I can't believe you are really gone.
I sang to the hymns today at
church at Bethany Christian.
We went there together a couple
of years ago. Do you remember?
Tears flowed down my face as I sang. I felt you.
I felt you there with me.

I just can't believe you are gone.
Brian and I are together. I know you loved him .
He misses you so much. Our hearts break together
over losing you. I pray they will grow and heal together too.

I LOVE you
and miss you so so much (drawing of heart crying)

His Radiant Glory

The Son is the Radiance of God's Glory (Hebrews 1)
I know that is where
you are my precious
Amanda
you are IN the radiance of His glory
The son, Jesus, who is superior the the angels

I believe
in that moment
that horrendous moment that haunts me
that moment before the blows began
to your sweet little head,
the blinding and beautiful light came
down to you
to get you
the sky opened up
and Jesus commanded His angels
to go down to earth
to where you were
to where you lay
and bring you home
He commanded his angels to get you
and they carried your spirit
and placed you in your Saviours arms.
Oh the glory of that moment
you got to meet Him
He brought you into His paradise
to dwell with Him for eternity
Heaven knows no time
are you looking down on me?
On us?
I can only imagine how you must have
melted into His embrace
full of His Radiant glory
And I believe your beloved grandpa
was waiting there for you
with that Big smile and his
loving embrace.
And you are flying now
with the angels
And you are one now
you are my angel
you are mommy's Angel
I called you that from the
time you were born
Oh how I love you
And miss you SO TERRIBLY
How I want to hold you and kiss you
But I can't. Not here not until
I see you again. In His Radiant Glory.

The Truth Hurts Too Much

journal entry Mar. 16, 2008

...I honestly don't know how I will survive.
I pray and I talk to God in fragments because that's the
only way my mind will work now.
The truth hurts too much.
The truth hurts too much
There is no escaping it.
Tomorrow I have to face the murder.
The trial date will be set tomorrow.
God help me
God help us
PAIN IS ALL I FEEL

The Holidays

Journal excerpt November 16, 2007

I want to be allowed to be happy during these times. I want to bask in the warmth of the blessings that are mine, right now, today.
Suzanne, Kurtis, my children.
She is healed
She is whole
There are no holes in her heart and soul
anymore. No voids to fill. No longings for love for a daddy.
no questions unanswered.
she is whole.
she is always with me.

Journal Entry the week of Sept. 15, 2007

This is from my journal the week before it happened. I had no idea how much "harder" my life was about to become...

Black Thursday

Death came...and so did Jesus
September 20, 2007
I lost my daughter.
This day will
forever be the worst,
most horrific day
of my life.
I have not been able
to write it.
I lost my duaghter.
Amanda Christian
Brinker died.
She was murdered
My heart will
never heal. My
once swollen womb
where God knit her
together, will forever
be empty just as
the place in my heart that was
destroyed that
horrific day.

I lost
my
baby girl
A monster
killed her
Amanda Christian
is now an
angel in heaven in a
place of perfect peace
one with God
in Jesus loving arms.

Thank you God
for giving her to
me for the 14
almost 15 years
of her life to
love her and the
honor and privilege
of being her
Mommy.
I will always love you
with all of my heart
My Amanda Pie
My Amanda Panda
{drawing of a broken heart}